wiiknd: "take care or be square." - nonna

dressed and pressed.

bp reunion.

cougar sandwich.

pre-dinner chocolate.

one roll.

"so basically, you all save lives."

cabin weekend.

up at 4:26.

candy crushin' & cat poppin'.

#ldsconf

pancakes + breakfast meats.

morning nap.

afternoon walk.

the perfect talk.

a full heart.

another perfect talk.

baja shrimp tacos.

popcorn shriiiiiiiiiiimp.

bananagrams for one.

phone call to mama.

bedtime tears.

sweet slumber. 

baby matie rudolph.

#ldsconf

just.amazing.

tweet all the things.

boxelder bug snack attack.

five perfect and beautiful sessions.

cabin closing.

baby kisses.

home.

free desk.

nuggies for dinner.

band of brothers.
baby kicks.

drive time ramblings.

>>play>>

this morning i found myself driving.

it was that peaceful 

pre-rush hour, pre-dawn time

and it was amazing.

as i moved and turned with the road

i watched the sky gradually lighten

and my heart smiled.

despite the overwhelming stress

and uncertainty about my future,

i am happy.

i should be stressed.

time is ticking and i need to make a 

concrete decision by tonight.

i should be freaking out.

instead, 

i find myself calm.

it's like a scene in a movie

where everything is cranked up to lightning speed

and the lead is just standing there,

letting everyone fly by.

i'm sitting here,

eating a peanut butter + jelly sandwich

at 8:17 in the morning

and perfectly content with life.

the freaking out will eventually start.
but right now, it's gone.
i'm untouchable.
i'm infinite.

twothousandandeleven.

today is the start of a new year.

i feel like i should say something along the lines of 

{oh.em.gee.i'm.so.excited}

but right now the feeling i have is 

peace.

don't get me wrong,

i am excited for two-double-one and everything it will bring.

i'm just not freaking about it.

hopefully this is foreshadowing how i handle the stress this year.

it's going to be a doozy. 

it's going to be great.

this semester is going to be challenging and really test my limits.

i'm going to start doing what i want to do for the rest of my life.

the yellow brick road to my dreams starts now.

wow. 

i've hand written my goals in my red mokeskine.

i hope to will accomplish them all.

i'm excited.

i hope two10 was as good to you as it was to me.

here's to the new year and everything it will bring. 

the challenges, joys, successes, failures, love, heartache, 

disappointment, learning, growing, living. 

i'm learning to love the trials 

because they make the joys that much better

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"it's like i'm on crack!!!"

i said that phrase so many times yesterday.
but i couldn't think of any other way to describe my happiness.
i decided to go to the temple right after work
and it was the best decision i've made in a long time.
i had so many things made clear to me.
it was incredible.
if only you could feel the joy and comfort i felt while being there.
that same feeling of happiness and peace has spilled over onto today.
i love it.
i never want to lose it.
i may not know everything that is going to happen in my life,
but i do know that my life is in good hands.

easy does it.

i did this today.

and it was incredible.

i wish i could transfer the emotions i felt to each of your hearts.

the peace and comfort.

i can tell you my result though.

simplify. simplify. simplify.

that's what i'm going to do.

that's all i can do.

simplify and have faith.

Walk to Class.

Gray snow spreads under black boots.
Gold watch turns cold with the wind
and startles the skin.
Eyes water at the biting cold.
The silent sky smiles hello.