maybe this is why kay is afraid of open water...

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strings

i weave webs around my heart

with words and thoughts and dreams.

i trap myself in the venom

that strenghtens my defenses.

if i am the creator of the tangled doubt

should i not have the solution

to dissolve this dark fear?

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my deepest apologies

but today is a mellow sort of day.
one where i find myself caught up and lost in the mazes of my mind.
a map is needed in order to exit.
but i'd rather not have one.
i like being lost in these walls.
thinking. hoping. dreaming. fearing.
sometimes i scare myself.
i raise my own hopes and kill them.
it's not always safe in this mind maze.
but since i'm the only one here,
my cries for help are unheard.
but my cries tend to be whispers.
little secrets only for me.
but if you'd like.
i'd be willing to let you hear those secrets.
i'd let you help me find my way out.
but i'm scared to let you in.

jump

This is just a warning.
I'm thinking about playing at Open Mic night at Muse music sometime before the end of this year.
Golly that thought scares me. 
But I'm all about overcoming my fears this year. 
Okay. 
I'm going to.
I just made that decision.
I pinky swear it.
And you know I don't break those, they're golden.