Friday, September 16, 2011

consider this a 57 minute commercial break.

last night i parked my car and sat.
it was dark and i was alone.
i sat and cried.
it wasn't nearly long enough 
 or hard enough,
but i cried.

i cried and my mind cleared.

after my waterworks,
i ate some almonds and thought about life.
i'm not sure what's going on right now,
but i know i need to focus on me.
i hate how terribly selfish that sounds,
but it's something i need to do.
during my almond chomping/life pondering session
[blue diamond is da booomb]
i realized i need to simplify my life.
simplify as in back to basics.

paused for the time being. 

in this specific situation, 
"the time being" 
is unknown.
days/weeks/months/light years...
as long as it takes. 

this is weird. 
i feel like i'm telling secrets to a friend
i've never really shared secrets with before.
but, i'm telling you so you know.
i'm not dead.
i'm not ignoring you.
i'm just being selfish.

that being said,
please don't judge me if you see me back on here 
after a rather short hiatus.
it just means my addiction won. 

mr. zuckerberg turned deactivating facebook personal.
i almost reconsidered pressing "deactivate" when these happy faces popped up.
what a sly little computer nerd. 
and with that,
i bid you farewell.
i promise to be back soon[ish]
and when i do, 
i'll be good as new.
filled with stories and adventures,
hipster pins and #30rock tweets.

[don't worry, i end telephone conversations even more awkwardly than that].


Ashley said...

Hey girly, this is a good move. The internet and all the noise and commotion it makes is too much sometimes! It's good to take a break. I hope you feel better/go back to nature like a hippie/dance naked around your house for fun :)

You will be missed during the hiatus but know that we love you!!!

Christianna said...

I hope that you enjoy your time off. It's always a good thing to take some time out for yourself! And it's awesome when you know that you need it! We will miss you for your time away, but that just means we will be able to have an amazing dance party when you get back! Time for yourself and a dance party? What's better then that?!

ellie said...

I WILL MISS YOU! but take advantage of your time off. I promise you you'll love it. I dare you not to touch technology at all this weekend! I promise Monday will be a much better day and you'll probably have bunches to tell people (face to face) about your wonderful weekend! You've got my email if you want to chat it up!

whitney tomlin said...

I will miss your posts! But if focusing on you is what's best, go for it! I've done it before and it's refreshing! Good luck :)

emilymcb said...

Hey I hope you're okay. I'm glad we're real friends now, so our friendship doesn't take a turn for the worst with you cutting back. haha.

Christi Lynn said...

GOOD FOR YOU! i think what you are doing is so great. best of luck! i'm sure you'll do great!

Christi Lynn said...

GOOD FOR YOU! i think what you are doing is so great. best of luck! i'm sure you'll do great!

Alexandria said...

<3 Girl, you know I understand. Take all the time you need. I ruv you <3

Jenna said...

I hear you. I could really use an internet detox. Hope you feel better soon.

Ashley said...

i fully support taking time off, i have done it before and its GREAT! get fixed what needs to be fixed and we'll be here waiting for ya when you get back! <3 ya!

Anna said...


Anna said...

Just kidding. I was getting a little overwhelmed the other day after I realized I had online accounts in like 40 different things. I deleted most of them. Sometime I'll deactivate facebook or something, but not quite yet. YOU GO GIRL.

Kandice said...

when you're feeling lonely and find that you miss me and natalie and are finally ready to meet us for the second time....

well, text us and we'll be there to go bowling. and i suppose we can even share some almonds.

then we can talk about (or not talk about) how we both don't partake in fb or twitter. same thing. but how great it is to at least blog because you're funny and people need that in their lives. including me.

kelli case anderson said...

first katrina and now you!

kelli will miss you. (said in a robotic voice). but i really won't because we are hanging out irl!

have a great web-free-cation/socialmedia-detox/finding-your-inner-child/peaceful-period-of-time. can't say i blame you!

lauren said...

Baby girl, I just want you to know that Im always here for you! I hope everything is ok! Im sorry FB tried to tempt you with me...I feel so used....If you ever need to talk you can always call me.

Jenni Austria Germany said...

i end phone conversations SO awkwardly.

and yeah, zuckerberg knows how to mess with your mind. i've deactivated a few times and that always ALMOST gets me.

you will definitely be missed!! come back soon!

whatevergatsby said...

oh girl, i am so with you on this one! break up and 32 hour work weeks coupled with full class schedule?! i think we all need those yoga-filled, starbucks dates with yourself weeks. i will wait patiently for your sassy return, dear! sending you lots of love from the town of beans and always feel free to shoot homegirl over here an email if you ever want to lady talk about it :)

karajean said...

I want to do this sometimes. Good luck, have fun, see you when you return!

Hilary Mae said...

I hope you come back soon but its definitely much needed sometimes. Have fun and I'll miss you!

Karolina said...

Good luck on solving all your problems dear! I'm awaiting your return :)


Hannah {Culture Connoisseur} said...

Do what you gots to do! We'll be here when you get back (if you decide to come back..if you don't, that's ok too.)

Life is surely more important than this here blog, and I hope you are able to find what you're looking for as you decompress and unplug for a while. :)

Dearest Lou said...

Hey girl I don't know how to contact you now that you deactivated your fb but if you want access to my private blog shoot me your e-mail address so I can invite you (:

McKinley {Haolepinos} said...

OMG I so did the same thing this week! Well as far as crying and wondering what is going on in my life. Don't worry it still happens when you are married with children. It seems like a cycle that never ends because there is always room to grow, there is always a place that needs to be discovered. But since you will be MIA email me at Haolepinos{@}gmail{.}com your phone number so we can invite you to our next get together!!! OK!!! Unless you don't want to totally fine, I wont take it personal... I will try not to take it personal ahhaha just kidding! But if you want to chat about your pondering thoughts let me know... I am in the same process!

PS I think it is great you want to take a break and focus on you. It is the best medication really. It isn't selfish because we all need our alone time... even when you have a newborn you will always need time to your self and the LDS church leaders encourage it because it is the best time to receive personal revelation!!! Good luck and you can do it!!! Fight the urge and temptation!!! Take a break and do all that you need to!

Amber Rose, Laughing With Broken Eyes said...

You know... internet detox sounds pretty good.

meme-and-he said...

as much as I will miss your updates, I am so glad you are doing this. Sometimes we just need a TIME OUT in life! hope it helps, and I will still be here when you get back!

mandyface said...

Oh man, being without internet has set me back sooo mucho. I have just a little time at work to try to do my own blogging and so I missed this until now, when I came here to send you this link
I hope Brissa time is going very well. I hope there are spontaneous dance numbers, snuggie sessions and chocolate covered everythings but most importantly, I hope that even though you've taken a break from the world you haven't take a break from him, Harry Potter. Don't lose sight of what's most important in life, Brissa. Make sure you read a little bit everyday, even if its only 15 min. It will truly make your days more positive and bright.
Missing you like Draco misses a snitch,

chelse said...

I'm sorry life has been hard! I feel your pain and just took a 2 month blogging vaca and it felt wonderful! Be selfish, be lazy, be a hippie and cut off every connection except face to face and do a little naked dance and GOOD LUCK!

Mikelle Jade {The Honeypie Archives} said...


Mikelle will miss you.

um seriously though, I hope we can get together with Kylee soon for dinner or something :) but I really will miss you while you are gone-- but I definitely think the break will be good!

PS I love your face in that second picture!

kelli case anderson said...

cooooooooooooooooooommmmmmmmmmmeeeeeeeeee bbbbbbbbbbbaaaaaaaaaaaccccccccccckkkkkkkkkkkk

i miss half and half.

Mr. Taylor and his Lady said...

aw, this is so great! so happy for you!
xo TJ

mandyface said...

Time to come back now. Frealzies.

kylee said...

i know you're on a break right now and i give you total props for doing so but brissa, darling.... COME BACK! i miss you in blogland.

heather said...

oh how weird! fb really did make leaving personal! i almost deactivated my account a while back, but i don't ever really look at it anyway. totally understand the cyber break though. it can be entirely time/life consuming. i hope you are finding clarity in your time away and that the tears have turned to laughter!