jude has urped up on me so many times today,
i'm starting to think the smell of baby puke has seeped into my skin.
i honestly think the only way to get rid of it is soaking in a bath of tomato juice.
nearly every diaper she's had has been messy.
and when i say messy i mean m e s s y.
homegurl means business today.
i had every intention of washing the dishes
but had to kiss those dreams goodbye
when jude decided today was a good day to be clingy.
i have watched more trash tv than i'd care to admit,
nearly cut off my head in order to stop a headache,
and am currently enjoying what may just be
the most delicious can of ddp i will ever taste.
as dramatic and awful as i'm making all this sound,
(and trust me, it is. just, so smelly)
i love it.
every time i've fed her today,
she's held onto my hand.
when i make the slightest move,
she squeezes it tight like she's making sure i don't leave.
she's been screaming like a banshee during her diaper changes
and won't stop until i pick her up and hold her tight.
i feel like a mom.
a real life mom.
one capable of hugging away tears
and making everything okay.
today has been hard
but i believe that's what has made it so great.